Letters From America 2.1

greetings lovely ones from the glorious fall colours of indiana

well i’ve officially been here a week and it’s definitely time for a bit of a catch up on the journey so far..
for those of you with way too much to do today.. here are the highlights

1. Nightime Chicagoland is beautiful.
2. You can get a whole workout at O’Hare International.
3. Airport shuttles are a great way to get local advisory on the city.
4. The accent still works wonders for favours, freebies, smiles and general all round goodwill.

After an enormous 36 hours in transit, I finally got to Chicago at about 7pm last Thursday night, in admist a massive lightning storm and unseasonal winds. Usually Chicago is called the Windy City in reference to some hot-winded politicians of last century, but in this instance, the winds were really warm and there were a bunch of tornados over the state the same night I arrived.

I checked in downtown and pretty much headed out to walk the streets straight away. Having not really had a chance to walk about Chicago by night last time, it was pretty blurry trying to orient myself in the midst of jetlag and the redeveloped front end of the Plaza but I managed to find my way to a oldstyle grocery that curved its way through the downstairs basements of three buildings on N.Michigan. I walked all the way down to Millenium Park, taking note that there were homeless people on just about every corner. Even in New York, there wasn’t the same prolification of homeless around. It was a constant theme of the next day also, the same 30 or people strewn along Michigan Ave in the area of where I was staying. Sobering to see the tourists and professionals bustling past them in the midst of a lunchhour shopping rush into Bloomingdales and Macys.

I could rave on and on about Chicago – I think it’s one of my favourite cities – but instead I’ll just save it for later. Heading out to Hoffman Estates, I transferred hotels and settled in for the Passion conference, the first of my stops. Ridiculously enough, my hotel was surrounded by restaurants, shopping centres and movie theatres but I couldn’t get to a single one, because the four lane highway doesn’t have a single crossing, nor do Americans favour sidewalks – at best you’ll only ever find one side of the road traversable!

Managed to connect with a bunch of folks at Passion and sort myself out for rides most places, when I didn’t want to walk. There’s not too much to say about the event itself that wouldn’t be boring for half of you and make the other half ridiculously envious.. so i’ll leave it at that. Saturday night I met Joshua, a Chicagoland native who graciously took me to Willow the next morning, where we then had lunch with Emmanuel (from Ghana, moved to Chicago when he was a kid), Lee and Fabbio (both pastors & college leaders from Sao Paulo, Brazil). It was a magic time talking and laughing, sharing stories through language, accents and general hilarity.

At best, I’m a raver and it takes me ten minutes to tell what ought to be a 2min anecdote, so you can imagine how long some of my best stories took this time around. Gulp.. but there was much trading of phone numbers, contact details and emails, promises to talk and communicate more and an open invitation to visit Sao Paulo anytime. I think we were all pretty excited about that, considering that Josh has been travelling to South America once a year for the past little while.

O’Hare International is a stunning place. Especially when you’re flying United and you get to enjoy the concourses. I was lucky enough to land at sunset on arrival, seeing the concourses stand like a grand glass palisade on their north-south axis. The use of glass, steel and light both in the concourses and the underground tunnel is a bold statement to life, and the triumph of technology that sees us lift into the sky. Every line of design and construction leads your eye always upward to the sky, reminding you that you are part of the airborne story yourself. In addition.. just walking laps of the concourses whilst waiting for your plane will take you just over an hour and burn off every calorie of the rich, over-laden airport food. I remain convinced that there is no smell on this earth like the nutty, sugary, cinnamon and coffee sweet aroma of the United terminal.. where everything smells so strong that you taste it in the back of your mouth before you even see it.

My flight into Indianapolis was slightly delayed.. I was grandly amused to be sitting waiting to board at the gate, when 4, 5 and then the 6th fire appliance went racing past the windows, lights flaring in the falling darkness. Then about 15 minutes later they all came back, same lights flaring but at a slightly slower pace. I was slightly disturbed that I seemed to be the only one that noticed both trips – so one can’t be too surprised that the security measures I expected to be so intense, have actually been fairly cruisy so far.

The unseasonal warmth throughout Illinois had spread to Indiana, but now it seems to be cooling off. The colours of the leaves are crisp and golden, the sun doesn’t rise properly until about 8am and falls off the horizon around 8pm at night. The daylight savings time is coming to an end, but in the meantime everything seems to get bumped up a notch in colour and hue. The smell of the grass and sun is almost as fragrant as the port magnolia at home. It’s nice just to get outside and breathe in the air of the place, although seven days on I still feel a little bit wobbly on my legs. The trucks around here have broad flanks, gleaming chrome and rust spots that would never make it through inspection back home. The flags are flying, both for the Indiana Colts and the Stars and Stripes. Fall Harvest festival is in full swing – which finishes with Halloween next week. There are pumpkins, lights and decorations everywhere and local radio 93.1 is in the midst of their 93 days of Christmas songs. Everything is golden, orange, red and autumny.

I think there’s something about the changes of pressure or whatever .. that for the first time I’m really reorienting myself in this body of mine! But the walking helps. The coffee doesn’t. Andy, I can’t wait to get home for the beans.

Meanwhile… that probably wraps up everything exciting I have to say for now. Goff, I’ve found your treats and I’m bringing ’em home.
You’ll all be waking up real soon – enjoy Friday. Tomorrow I’m going horse-racing.

If you’ve caught up on the California fires – reports here are rife now about arsonists with Al Quaeda connections, as well as the hundreds of thousands affected. Thankfully when I last heard, marko and jeannie (who I’m staying with in San Diego in about 10days) haven’t had to evacuate. Prayers appreciated for that part of the world though.

Would You Like Something For Less Than Nothing With That?
Yesterday I needed to fill up with gas, at a whopping $1.55 per litre. Whilst filling the tank on my way to band practice, I was sorry enough to purchase a gas station coffee to hit the road with. I was completely under the premise of ‘warming up the vocal chords’. The sales assistant offered me the In-Store deal. But can someone explain how this works to me?

REGULAR gas + coffee to go = $81.58

YESTERDAY gas + coffee + kitkat chunky = $77.81

Help. It’s beyond me to understand exactly how increasing your customer traffic by reducing each of their spends can possibly be so pragmatic in the long run, if you’re only talking about small bites? Hmm. Maybe I should check the date on the kitkat bar…

Early Mornings, Wisdom More Than Knowledge
All those years ago when I worked in radio, I loved the early morning journey into the middle of the city. I loved waking before the rest of the city and surveying her peacefulness as she woke. I loved watching the dawn from the 11th floor of the Peace Tower.. sun sliding over the harbour and the traffic slowly snaking it’s way in and out of the city centre.

I love early mornings still, when I’m at Eastercamp and I unlock the doors to the sanctuary space, waiting for the youth leaders to pile in. I love the emptiness of the enormous room, but how home-like it feels. I love the mist and fog of an early Waikato morning like nothing else on this earth.

I love early mornings now, just because the birds that sit in the macrocarpa outside my window, on my window sill, in the olive trees and on my tin roof are full of song, and the dawn feels like a slow golden glow rising over the horizon into my kitchen window.

I love early mornings on Tuesdays, because I gather with precious Jesus-hungry teenagers and we dig into the Word. I just love it. I love them with such a joy because they are full of goodness and challenge and life.

What’s so great is that this group is in dogged pursuit of wisdom, not knowledge. The knowledge is empty, but they have hearts that crave wisdom. I am relearning the wonder of Proverbs 3:5 .. leaning NOT on our own understanding.

Tide Is Turning, The Sun Is About To Break Forth
The past couple of weeks have been really challenging. Tough times. But the sun is about to burst forth, and I’m looking forward to the feeling of the Sun’s rays on my face. I imagine this is sometimes what Peter would have felt like.. the constant ache of frustration and exhaustion.

I reckon Peter was probably much more of a thinker than what we traditionally give him credit for. Sure, he was a hot-head, but I can’t help but think that he pondered and mused on his actions, reactions and would’ve/could’ve equations. Methinks that’s when the dark shadows would have rolled in, self-doubt and anxiety would have shown themselves on his face.

Thankfully, me and Peter are standing on the shoreline together today, knowing that the sun is going to rise, bursting forth glorious light.

Remind Me Who I Am

there are times when i’m lead to be graceful
and times when i don’t care at all for the words
that fall from my darkened lips, prayers and troubles, and ills

there are times when i know you’d like peaceful things
times that i can’t measure up with my failings and worries
my secrets and crimes, i too easily carry my heart on the line

i know you’ve got plenty of angels watching
and i know you’d be hardpressed to leave me
but i’m falling off the world… hold on to me
it’s hard to face courage & darkness at once

there are times when i pray cos i should, not cos i’m able
and times when i want everything complicated made simple
when my life is just a shadow formed by your light

i know you got everything held up in time
and i know you got me right where you want me
but i’m falling off the world… hold on to me
it’s hard to face courage & darkness at once

there are times, love, when my hands are so open
it feels, love, i’ve got nothing at all left
there are times, love, you need to take me by the hand
so lend me your eyes, lend me your strength, hold on to me.

Grace, She Takes Her Place
Interesting times are afoot in our community – we are working through a series in Revelation on the letters to the churches in morning services. Yenot taking her place at the table.sterday was on the letter to the church in Sardis. It was full of good and decent truth. It highlighted some truths to me that I hadn’t thought about recently, but I was not convicted, nor chided by it. I simply interacted with new knowledge and filed it.

Then in the evening service, the message was on the sinful, fallen woman hauled before Jesus by the Pharisees. It was dissected with methodical intent, designed to show the goodness of God’s grace and the justice, the cleverness with which Jesus saves her from the stones. It failed to hold my attention because I am familiar enough with the story, and the mechanics of Jesus’ interaction with the woman and the Pharisees that I’m not sure what else mechanical there is to know.

Is it I, that is failing so in not engaging purposefully with the truth presented to me? Or is it a case of Grace not taking her place at the table yet?

I become more and more compelled to believe that in this task of teaching, preaching, guiding and reminding the Bride of her identity in the “Truth”.. that we have taken again picked up the Law as the mode of conviction and behavioural discipline.. and I think this is more in reference to ‘other places’…

But it is always Grace that convicts me most.
That compells truth into my heart.
That demands a response from my too-often hard heart.
Grace that softens and moulds at the same time.
Grace that effortlessly holds the tension between my humanity and Christ’s divinity. Grace that abounds with forgiveness and holds my confessions.
It is Grace that holds my hand and walks me back to the foot of the Cross.
Grace that walks me back to my path.
It is Grace that compells me to open the hands that have clenched tightly onto what I have deemed precious, usually some foolish thing.
Grace that is content to enter a dark heart and bring light with her.

It is always Grace that brings the most poignant truth to life in my flesh.